To be or not to be?

Over the past year and a half in high school, I have been in many situations where I have had to decide whether I should have fun or be good. These decisions range from do homework or watch tv to stay sober or get high.

I have to admit that most of the time I make a decision like this, most people think it is bad. Almost every time I watch tv rather than do homework, the teacher yells at me the next day.

One night, a few months ago, I did not make the best decisions. I decided to have fun with my friends and I did things that I would not have done if I was thinking straight. I was in the moment and having a good time. The decisions I made affected my relationship with one of my best friends. I've thought a lot about that night since then. I have talked to my friends about it. Although I would not make these decisions again, I wouldn't change the past. I don't regret what happened. It happened for a reason and I had a hell of a good time that night.

What I mean to say by all of this is don't dwell on the past. If nobody was hurt, don't regret it. Negative thoughts can weigh you down and cripple your mind. Stay positive!

The Family You Choose

I believe the most important people in your life are your family. I also believe that your family is not just your blood relatives. Your family is the group of people that truly care about you; the people that are there for you when you're down, when you're up, and when you're just being yourself! Your family should not judge you. Your family should be happy for you if you're happy or sad for you if you're upset.

Every time I feel upset, I can call any one of them they'll be there for me. Whenever I have something to celebrate, they're there with me cheering me on. They even pretend that I'm good at playing the guitar! I can honestly say I have the most amazing family in the world!

Exhibit A:

There is one member of my family that is one of the coolest and most sincere people I know. This chick is so rad but quite often, people don't realize it. Fortunately, I have the privilege to witness her awesomeness in action! I'm so lucky to have her in my life. My dear friend is an amazing artist and she has shared some of that work with me.

Here's just a fraction of her mind-blowing talent:

"I set my alarm to 11:11
I wake up with songs in my head
My dreams are real fun, if you know what I mean
They're the kind that make you sing, "I love you, I love you, I love you"
Who doesn't love their mother? Who doesn't love their brother? Who doesn't love another?
Who doesn't need help? Who has all the answers? Who knows everything?
I wanna meet you so badly
I wanna hold you in my arms tonight
If you're so strong, then why don't you help me?
I get hurt and I feel pain
I fall down and I feel shame
I feel love and my broken heart is healed
Because I feel
And my dreams;
They're the kind that make you sing, "I love you, I love you, I love you"
Who doesn't love their mother? Who doesn't love their brother? Who doesn't love another?
Who doesn't need help? Who has all the answers? Who knows everything?
Have you seen it all? Is it beautiful? Is it wonderful?
Is it a place where dreams come true? Is it a place that makes you sing, "I love you, I love you, I love you. I want you, I want you, I want you. I need you, I need you, I need you. I dream about you"?
Can you navigate your way? Can you find the right path? Do you know all the maps? But can you find your way to my heart?
And my dreams;
They're the kind that make you sing, "I love you, I love you, I love you"
Who doesn't love their mother? Who doesn't love their brother? Who doesn't love another?
Who doesn't need help? Who has all the answers? Who knows everything?
In my dreams I feel like dying. In my dreams I feel like flying.
In my dreams I am a mother. In my dreams I have another.
In my dreams I think and feel. In my dreams I feel despair.
In my dreams I am alive. In my dreams I do survive.
In my dreams I sing, "I love you, I love you, I love you."
Who doesn't love their mother? Who doesn't love their brother? Who doesn't love another?
Who doesn't need help? Who has all the answers? Who knows everything?
I love you, I love you, I love you. I want you, I want you, I want you. I need you, I need you, I need you. I dream about you.
You hold my hand and say, "Is this it?"
I reply, "Yes, this is love."
Then my alarm goes of at 11:11.
With my dream song stuck in my head."

I am truly blessed! I hope that everyone will have the chance to experience the joy that I get from simple interactions with my family.

Drama (Llama?)

Many teenagers live for drama. Unfortunately, those of us who do not still have to deal with it constantly. I'm sick of it! Don't get me wrong. If I have a friend in crisis, I'm happy to be the shoulder to cry on. However, when a friend gives me some self-inflicted sob-story, I often want to punch her in the face.

Exhibit A:

Girl's boyfriend does not call like he said he would. He must not love her anymore!

Exhibit B:

Friend cancels plans to help get over boyfriend (see Exhibit A) because she's grounded. She's such a bitch.

Exhibit C:

Ohmygod! Teacher took points off because girl didn't do assignment. She was really busy texting asshole boyfriend (see Exhibit A) and bitching about friend who ditched her (see Exhibit A). Girl simply could not do the assignment. Teacher is such a sexist pervert.

I think I have made my point. Oh! If only, if only we could eliminate the drama.